Phase Two: Picture of Spiders

Warning: This post WILL contain pictures of spiders!
I’m sure some people may wonder why I am warning people of this, well to me it’s pretty simple. People who have a phobia of spiders WILL indeed need a warning!!

Hello again, I will now be going on to stage two of my fear ladder, looking at pictures of spiders. 

Current Fear Level: 8

So these pictures are not helping me feel any less scared of spiders…especially when google images shows you pictures like this…:

Now I am freaking out a bit…..

So I continue looking at pictures, then I come across what looks like a spider cricket, WE HAVE SOME OF THESE IN OUR HOUSE! And they FREAK ME OUT!
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Primarily they freak me out because they look like spiders, AND they jump!

I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this, but all bugs freak me out, except ants…lol

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK! I hate spiders. I hate spiders. I hate spiders. Google images hates me. Florida hates me. Maybe we’ll just go to North Carolina….

Current fear level: 4

My fear is a bit still up there, we will continue with the pictures stage the next time I post!

Thanks!

Kristina Marina ❤

 

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Phase One: Spider Facts

Hello again! I will begin with stage one on the fear ladder, I will read some facts about Spiders and I will share them on here.

Let’s get to work!!

(I want to make a note that this site is helping me a lot with figuring out how to overcome my phobia: http://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/phobias-and-fears.htm).

 

Current Fear Level: 6

Reading up facts about spiders in itself is not scary, however, I know that while I am trying to find information about spiders, I will definitely come across some pictures of spiders which I am not supposed to do until phase 2. I am very nervous to see pictures of spiders.

Okay so I have officially begun, and I must say, I WAS RIGHT! I am seeing all kinds of pictures of spiders, I have to breath and remind myself that they are only pictures though.

 

Here is one website I am currently on : http://www.insectidentification.org/spiders.asp

So far I’ve learned a few things, the black widow spider eats her mate after they have babies, thus making her a “Widow”. Their bites are obviously ones that you want to avoid. I’ve learned that spiders have 6-8 eyes, but no ears, as they listen using sound vibrations.

As I’m reading, I feel as though spiders are crawling on me, typically because my head is making me feel this way, but they are not! (obviously)

Current Fear Level: 1

I am no longer fearful when it comes to reading about spiders, and as I read about them, I realized it wasn’t too bad just to read about them.

 

I would like to begin Phase 2 soon, and I will! 🙂

 

So now I come to an end of this post, and I will keep you updated on my progress :).

 

Kristina Marina ❤

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Plan of Action

Note: Please read Introduction first to find out what on earth I am talking about 😉

When you have a goal in mind, everyone needs a plan of action.

My first plan of action is to create myself a fear ladder (Sounds pretty cool huh??) . I will make a list of activities that I find frightening, related specifically to my phobia. These activities will go in order from least frightening to most frightening. Now, this is not to say that the first activity on my list won’t be just as frightening, but it WILL be the least frightening of everything, something that will cause me the least amount of anxiety. I am not going to be crazy enough to start my exposure therapy with something so scary that it just makes me want to give up. Here we go!

My Fear Ladder:

  1. Reading about spiders
  2. Looking at pictures of spiders
  3. Watching videos about spiders
  4. Holding a fake spider (yes, this FREAKS me out!)
  5. Standing 10 feet away from a real spider
  6. Standing 5 feet away from a real spider
  7. Standing next to a spider
  8. Watching a real spider move around in a container
  9. Holding the container with the spider
  10. Catching a spider

These are all of the tasks that I would like to accomplish. I will start with number 1 and I will post an entry showing the facts that I read about, in addition to rating my anxiety both before and after each exercise. I will continue to stay on the same exercise until my anxiety has reached a 1-3 on the scale. The first activity might take me two days, while the second activity might take me two weeks, I am going at my own pace completely. (Note to anyone reading: when I get to exercise 2, I WILL indeed be posting pictures of spiders. If you have a phobia just like me and picture freak you out, I recommend you take this one step at a time as well!)

I will be making note of any stress-relievers that I use during my exercise, noting what helped me and what did not help me (breathing exercises, challenging negative thoughts, etc.)

 

I truly hope that by the end of this entire thing, I am brave enough to open the windows sitting behind me! (Yes I am scared of opening the windows behind me, because spiders could get in lol!)

I will be keeping you (you as in no-one since no-one is reading this haha) updated on my progress, if anyone decides to follow me in my plan to overcoming my phobia! For now, this is a resource that will be helping me!

Kristina Marina ❤

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Introduction, shall we?

Hello and welcome to my blog! I do not expect to get absolutely any followers or fans in the process of creating my blog, as this is a creation of my personal journey towards unleashing and defeating my Arachnophobia (side note: should I be capitalizing Arachnophobia?? I don’t know! It looks better capitalized so we will go with that!). 

Let me introduce myself (to myself right? Since I plan on having no followers! Ah well, just in case, here we go):

My name is Kristina and I am 21 and 3/4 years old. I live in the 2nd smallest state and I JUST graduated from college with my bachelors in Elementary Education (WOO HOO!!!) and am in the process of pursuing different teaching/assistant teaching positions until I find my perfect job! I am currently in a (almost) 5 year relationship with my best friend, my boyfriend. We plan on moving to Florida in exactly 1 year and 3 months. This all sounds wonderful and great, except that I’ve done my research and Florida is one of the top states for bugs, which means spiders……

 I am very tempted to tell my boyfriend that I am unable to move to Florida because there will be a lot of spiders, but that sounds kind of extreme. My plan? Overcome this fear. 

I plan on using this blog to help me in overcoming my fear. I will keep track of my progress as the days go by, and I will make note of what I am doing each day (exposing myself to pictures, videos, etc) and I will also be sharing the resources I use (yes I will be posting big scary pictures and videos of spiders, which gives me the chills to even think about). I will be taking this one step at a time though. If anyone is actually reading this, please feel free to take this journey with me, very very slowly but very very effectively.

That’s really all that I have for you (or me- if no one is reading) right now! I will continue to post my progress day-by-day! 🙂

 

Kristina Marina ❤